Monday, March 12th, 2007
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6:44 pm
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Wednesday, January 17th, 2007
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7:22 am - cablewhore
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Monday, January 1st, 2007
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6:24 pm
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Sunday, August 27th, 2006
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2:58 am - 'rigor mortis'
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Monday, June 19th, 2006
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10:20 pm
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well shes gone
and fuck
it feels empty.
good byes are over rated.
it just makes you miss someone.
and why would you ever want to miss someone
and feel that pain.
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Thursday, June 8th, 2006
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11:44 pm
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right now, its the oddest feeling.
life to me has never felt like its going too fast, and too slow, in the same instant.
i dont want past, i dont want future, and i dont even want present.
god i wish i had someone to talk to right now.
someone that didnt stab me in the back.
man, i am lost.
that seems to be a common thought of mine lately.
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Wednesday, June 7th, 2006
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9:16 pm - if there is a god...
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he has a fantastic sense of humor.
because he takes out anyone that ever matters to me from my whole school year,
and completely takes them out of my life all in the span of my last month of school.
3 years in a row.
its so strange.
good bye scott shea danielle and alyssa.
hope you guys have wonderful lives.
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Tuesday, June 6th, 2006
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6:50 pm
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so maybe this is kinda stupid,
but i came across my most favorite flower i gave to her.
and had the urge to do the she loves me loves me not thing..
and she loved me not.
i think it was right.
i wonder when ill be stable enough not to have to depend on other people, to be happy with myself.
i hate that about me.
i really do.
current mood:  eh
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Wednesday, May 17th, 2006
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10:13 pm
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"That's the thing about girls. Every time they do something pretty, even if they're not much to look at, or even if they're sort of stupid, you fall half in love with them, and then you never know where the hell you are. Girls. Jesus.
They can drive you crazy.
They really can."
-Catcher in the rye
this books amazing.
current mood:  w/e
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Thursday, April 27th, 2006
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10:23 pm
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Spin the apparatus in circular Paths.
Rotating involvement surround your spineless thoughts
Of self intimacy or insidious fame
Corpse twisting, snapping dried marrow.
Dust. Webbing.
Dehydrated skin molecules erupting
My body is the apparatus.
It’s inspecting your every move.
Minding your feats. Your thoughts. Your weaknesses.
I hate everything about you.
Spinal messages short of destination
Flesh wound radius 5.92
Gun barrel smoke.
Inhale my hate. Choke on it.
You are the product of imperfection.
Epitome of worthlessness
Rot in agony
And crumble at my feet.
I triumph over your desperate life.
I fucking triumph.
current mood:  shit.
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Thursday, April 13th, 2006
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10:20 pm
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i just want someone to be there for me right now.
i dont know about anything.
everything seems so pointless.
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Monday, April 3rd, 2006
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8:37 pm
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i havent updated since forever
but i thought you all should know
me and my gf own at guitar hero.
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Tuesday, February 7th, 2006
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6:48 pm
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today was hmm.
well i expected it to be amazing as always.
but something inside of me
took over.
and i didnt feel like getting up.
something was pulling me down.
i felt so sad and depressed.
i couldnt figure out why.
and my mom just topped it off by being a bitch on the phone.
ugh.
:/
current mood: depressed
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Saturday, February 4th, 2006
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11:56 pm
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god i realized why i stopped bein in communities like 2 years ago.
haha at first it seems fun.
then i realize how disqustingly rediculous that shit is.
i feel dirty for being in them ever.
its so fucking high school.
theres a reason all the kids in them are like 15.
GROSS
people trying to make them selves feel better
and putting down others.
e-acceptance.
hahaha.
funny.
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Friday, January 27th, 2006
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11:27 pm - ♥
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Tuesday, January 17th, 2006
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9:19 pm - proj for school
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Pressure
A river leads me
To a place
Where it’s easy
To find
Easier to get
Easier to hide
It pulls me down
'Till i see the sun
Dancing on top of the
Endlessly moving water
Here its everything
Air, and earth
Smile or tear
I hear voices from everywhere
Asking me, screaming, pleading "breathe again"
The sun laughs
I choke.
As the water floods my lungs,
Slowly I drift deeper
The light shafts fade
My bones crack
As I smash upon the river floor
Pressure
Pressure
Pressing the life out of me
Pressure.
As my eyes begin to blur
And my mind begins welter
A hand reaches out for me
A glimpse of hope.
I grasp with all my might.
The light begins to glimmer
As the weight lifts from my body
Lungs expand
I emerge
Purity.
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Wednesday, January 11th, 2006
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9:27 pm
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2005
[P E O P L E]
1. Best friends? shea...
2. Best boyfriend/girlfriend? uh only had 1..
3. Lost any friends? ya alot
4. Gained any friends? yes i suppose
5. Met a new good friend? erica
[P L A C E S]
1. Went out of the country? france
2. Moved? nope
3. New school?santiago
4. How many times on an airplane? maybe like 5 or 6
5. Road trips? dont remember bigones
[Y O U]
1. Have you changed? oh ya
2. New look? no more hair... not so queer
3. Any new additions? ahha
4. Biggest conflict this year? everything
5. Most depressed time this year? sophmore year
[L O V E]
1. Did you fall in love? no
2. Did you get heartbroken? ya
3. Who was your summer love? dont remember ha
4. How many boyfriends/girlfriends this year? 1
5. Favorite date? lookin at the stars with erica
[S E A S O N S]
1. Favorite Season? winter
2. Least favorite season? fall
3. Good birthday? sure
4. Any snow this year? not here- mts :)
5. Highest temperature? like 106 or something
[F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S]
Snuck out-few times
Met a person who will change your life- ya
Kept your resolution- i dont ever make one
Got arrested- naaahh
Had a first something- yep
Smoked weed/drugs- yeah
Did anything illegal- yeah
Kissed a boy/girl- ya
Had a crush- of course
Liked someone who didn't like you- most likely
Lost a family member- friend
Got bad grades- ha
Got suspended- naah
Moved states- nope
Got a myspace- had
Started a band- ya
Spent over 1 million dollars- hahahahaha ok
Went streaking- kinda
Done something you shouldn't have- most likely
Kept a secret- ya
Told a secret- ya
Done something you totally regret- yaaaaaaaaaa
Changed your view on things- yessss
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Monday, January 9th, 2006
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3:49 pm - Irony.
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parents put restricitons on their kids to keep them in line, but it makes them lie more. when they find out you lie, they put more restrictions on. which leads to more lying.
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Thursday, January 5th, 2006
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11:02 pm
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Tuesday, January 3rd, 2006
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11:59 pm
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